Wednesday Morning

my cousin, paul, is here in amsterdam for the rest of the time i'm here + 2 weeks in spain =]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]] 

i can't believe there's only one week here =[ its going way too fast. i'm trying to balance having fun with still getting all my final exams and essays done. its actually working out better than expected. i'd go into details, but then they might shut down my account. hahahaha. just kidding kind of.

all i want to do is absorb every minute of my time here. i am completely in my element and i feel like i suddenly have so much clarity. its refreshing and i love it all.

but there's something i still can't shake and it bothers me because i've never been this way before.