A Quicky

haha i really don't blog enough. it makes me sad cuz i haven't been in the writing mood since i got to san diego.

anyways, classes just started. i'm already at the library with jonlee because i'm miraculously behind. today in my cog sci class, the TA gave us a quiz and it was seriously a fuck my life kind of moment. i feel like i'm a part time student because i'm only taking three classes. and one of them is only once a week, so it feels like i'm only taking two. i recently started my new job at the programs abroad office and i love it. and it makes me really excited when people talk to me about wanting to go abroad... because everyone should do it. forreal. no excuses! 

i would like to extend my congratulations to cecilia huang for getting the job with EAOP she's been wanting for a long time. job whore. hahaha <3 love you

today is my Tita Telly's birthday. I wish i could show her my appreciation for everything she's done for me. her and my uncle ben have basically been my other set of parents my entire life. i knew their phone number before i even knew my own because i'd call them every saturday morning to hang out. in the past few years alone they've helped me go to europe (the first time), throw my debut, and study abroad. i'm truly blessed to have people like them in my life.

scattered and not very well written, but i must get back to reading. 

Now and Then

i've said it before, but i'll say it again. i'm happier than i've been in what seems like forever. 

Its only now that I'm beginning to realize how close I was to scraping the bottom during the entire second half of spring quarter. Life, or whatever higher being it is that calls the shots around here, decided to put me through an obstacle course and i allowed myself to be defeated by it. i always loved the fact that i could be reflective, but reflection seemed to just dig me into a deeper hole, so i did what felt natural.. i buried myself away and even in the presence of my closest friends, i still felt aloof and disengaged from everything and everyone around me. 

but life always has its way of working things out in the end. i'm thankful for those few months of struggle because it forced me to find that fight inside of me again. i feel that fire inside of me again that drives me towards everything i've ever wanted, and its burning stronger then ever. 

Thank you to the people who saw me even when I thought i was invisible.

wednesday night

i fucking love my roommates and our new apartment.

i love sneaking into the pool without getting caught.

i love that as much as life shapes us, best friends will forever remain my constants.

i love karaoke nights, yogurt, and rice crispy. treats

i love how far i've come since i left san diego in june. 

i have a legit-ass second job now. i moved in to my new home. san diego is beautiful. home finally felt like home again. obama is bomb. i know what i want, and i'm on my way there enjoying every step. 

life is so good right now.