A Monday in Amsterdam

This one is for... Cil because i forever steal the quotes she finds and i used one as my new title for this blog to sound less emo and more... me. Danikka because she reminded me i haven't been updating during my trip, and the entire reason i made a public blog (ha! cuz everything juicy is still under a private one!) was so i could tell people back home about my adventures. & Kerri because our experience last week is just starting to sink in. I can't believe we've gone from meeting on the monkey bars in first grade to traveling Spain together fourteen years later. but mostly this one is for them because they understood the unexplainable part about what this summer was going to be for us as individ

uals. it was stressful and it was scary, but tell me you don't already know this is going to be the most amazing summer of our lives <3

I'm not going to lie, it was all very overwhelming. personally, i went through weeks and weeks of anxiety over this trip during the school year, to finals, to the excitement and chaos of being home & jeffrey's surprise visit, to being bedridden the day before my trip and somehow suddenly finding myself in the middle of Spain despite it all. Once I arrived in Madrid, my sister asked me if I was excited. I told her I didn't have time to be... but now that I'm here in my cozy apartment in Amsterdam I'm glad i stuck through it because its all going too fast already!

more pictures and story telling in the next post, promise! In the mean here's a peek at where I've been. Puerta del Sol in Madrid, Carrer de Ferran in Barcelona, and the Torensluis aka the widest bridge in Amsterdam.

hasta manana.

p.s. viva espana! they won the eurocup yesterday and the futbol games have definitely been a highlight of my trip sofar. plus i think Casillas, the goalie for Spain, is really cute! ahaha

Madrid, Espana!

After a series of unfortunate events (food poisoning causing me to spend my entire last day in the states unable to get out of bed followed by flight delays that seemed to last for days), I finally arrived in Madrid on Thursday afternoon. I'm staying with my sister here for a couple days before heading up to Barcelona. My friend Kerri met me here, she had her share of travel mishaps as well. I'm surprised i know enough spanish to get around. but pleasantly surprised.

k time its 12:15 am which means its time to get ready for some mojitos and dancing!

One Large Coffee Milk Tea

I unintentionally pulled an all-nighter and thanks to one large coffee milk tea with baby boba, I am now officially on summer vacation. I'm convinced that drink must have been laced with adderall or something because I was on my A-game today while writing my USP final. I sat down at midnight and didn't get up from the couch until i finished at 5:30 am. that's twelve hours before the time its due, wtf? i can't remember the last time i focused like that either. but this caffeine is still working its magic because I can't sleep and the sun is out and the birds are chirping. 

oh, and i'm home now :] i'm fighting the urge to drive to Safeway to buy groceries and cook breakfast. weird, right? for now i'll curl up with my friend Alain de Button until I fall asleep. goodnight!

The Westside Story

I just finished watching The Westside Story and man am I satisfied! now i remember why i loved that movie so much when i was younger. A romeo & juliet love story, gangstas singing and dancing, and new york city. what more could a girl ask for? 

Not studying

This is a sketch of what will hopefully be the next addition to my wall paintings. i spent a total of about 3 minutes on it, so don't hate, just imagine it in paint. i did at the bottom of my USP notes when i was trying to do my take-home final (which i still have yet to start. haha)

This is a sketch of the person I've been lately. constantly in motion, carrying with me a collection of worries that only get tangled up in each other and slow me down. 

If there's anything i've learned in the past year, its knowing what to let go. I guess i've just forgotten that lately. i called this a self portrait, but now that i think about it, its really a not-being-myself portrait. all these thoughts that clutter my head have weighed me down to the point where it feels like i've lost my focus and i almost can't remember what i'm about anymore. i'm always lost in thought these days and writing emo blogs, and while i love being contemplative, being constantly in this state is not being me. 

 but i'm ten days away from an experience that will probably change my life, and i've waited for this for way too long to let anything slow me down. so i'm letting it all go. i'm done with trying to analyze and be practical. its my time now.

i'm blogging, which means i should be studying.

Randomness:

• where did my glasses go?
• i need to pay summer tuition because they put a hold on my account.
• i need to email my sister about spain.
• i can't believe i'm almost done with one of my papers ahead of time, but writing this statement is probably going to jinx me.
• i used to write things i needed to do on my hand, but now i use pens that don't write on skin well and my life is a mess. 
• i want a crepe from rowland heights.
• my half an hour nap today turned into a two hour one... again.

that is all. k bye.